Supposed to be 2-way...

This topic has been bouncing around in my head for a few days now. It has taken me this long to post it because I have also been suffering from the flu, which was also the inspiration for this topic.

Specifically, while ill I considered calling in sick to work. Yet my current employer places less value on the health and well-being of it's employees, and more value on having people to man the phones. I say this because staying out sick counts as an official "occurrence", meaning I can get fired for it, despite being ill myself and contagious to others. So, I went to work anyway, light-headed, running a fever, etc.

And this is not the first employer I have seen this type of attitude from. It seems that the larger the company, the less loyalty and regard they have for their employees. Yet, those same companies punish displays of "disloyalty", like attempts to unionize, seeking other employment, etc. Even saying something negative about the employer can result in summary termination. So, these companies want absolute, blind loyalty, yet give absolutely none in return.

And nobody complains about this? Right now, I'm wondering what the Health Dept. might have to say about the company requiring employees to come in feverish and contagious, or risk firing...

Struck a chord...

A friend of mine wrote this, as a song. I repost it here because it (for obvious reasons) struck a bit of a chord with me. I have a more involved post in mind for later, but just don't have the time to post it right now. Hopefully my schedule will improve soon...

The auther's name is Danae Dunning, also listed at the bottom.

"Not For You"

I gave all of myself to you
Would have done anything for you
But you shut me out
And pushed me away
You just gave me up without a fight
And when I left, you didn't even say goodbye

My songs are not for your ears
My body is not for your eyes
My kisses aren't for your lips
You had it all
Yet threw it away
I'm not for you anymore.

Why didn't you say what's on your mind
You didn't even bother to try
Don't you dare say you're sorry
And that you'll always love me
I have forgiven, but I won't forget
Just go away and let me move on.

My songs are not for your ears
My body is not for your eyes
My kisses aren't for your lips
You had it all
Yet threw it away
I'm not for you anymore.

Danae Dunning 2010

List 1: These things I believe

Yeah, haven't been able to post as often as I'd like. Busy life, and honestly wanting it a little busier. And so, as a filler type of thing, and also when I can't think of a more involved post (or more than an outline for one), I have decided on an occasional List. For example, this one came to me as I thought about all of the rediscovering myself I have since leaving the abusive relationship, and the lying user.

I am not e religious person, and could only barely be even considered a spiritual person. But that does not mean that I do not have beliefs and morals, things that I personally believe in.

1) I believe that there is a Creator. However, I personally don't think that such is a being is personally knowable or understandable by humanity. Which would explain the several dozen different religions. I follow my heart, and what I feel to be right, instead of what any book may tell me.
2) Honesty and honor are about the most important virtues to me. I don't make promises that I know I won't be able meet (which leads to me actually just sounding noncommittal). I don't lie, unless it's to hide a greater surprise as a result. But, it is too often as Juvenal said: "Honesty is praised, and left in the cold."
3) I'm terrible at even 'Social Lying'. It's because I really don't hide all that much of myself. Pretty much anyone can me anything, and I will at least endeavor to answer it honestly. Just never ask me something, unless you're sure you want to hear the answer.
4) Cynicism is loving the world too much to be happy with seeing it be less
5) I'm either hedonistic, or polyamorous. I'm really not sure. I like sex, I like pleasure, I even like just giving pleasure. And I don't believe that sex is necessarily exclusive to love or relationship. I do, however, personally require some level of trust and knowing the person beforehand, though. (yeah, for some of you this'd seem obvious. Again, I am in rediscovery of myself)
6) Violence and anger can be positive, productive things.
7) Dreams should be cultivated. Calling someone a "dreamer" should not be a negative, even if those dreams are tacitly impossibly. Dreams give hope, and goals, or even just simple joy.
8) It is important to value the little things. The simple pleasures of, for example, a good pipe tobacco, some chocolate milk, and something decent to watch on TV.
9) I honestly think people need to be more vocal and active about the things they believe in and cherish. Too often it seems that people just say something quietly to a few of their friends...and then they wonder why nothing ever changes. If you have some problem with someone, tell them. They might take offense...but to do otherwise means that it will just fester in you, and likely lead to something more hurtful later.

There'll likely be more later. For now, I have things to go do. :)