Fearful Creatures

First, let me clarify something from some earlier posts. I do understand the modern need for politeness when dealing with people, I do. I understand that sometimes it makes more sense to just smile and nod and laugh along with the asshats of the world, rather than make a scene. It's when it becomes habitual, and when it becomes a matter of never saying to the person what you are willing to say behind their back, that it becomes problematic to me. If someone's willing to say you are a "two bagger" when you're not around (two bagger: meaning that it would require two bags over your face before the rest of you could be considered attractive), while only calling you sexy or pretty or whatever to your face...I'd say there's a problem there.

Next is the fact of people being frightened of me, and my anger. Now, I admit...I am often angry. Have an aura of anger, as some have put it, since it's not exactly coscious, I can be laughing and having a great time, and still give that feeling of anger. But firstly is the fact that that previous statement means that obviously, I can't help it. Next is the fact that those who truly matter, and have really gotten to know the person I am, know that no matter how scary I may be, I am generally only dangerous on their behalf, or that of others. Because I am a protector and avenger by nature. And the others...obviously never cared enough to find that out.

It just begins to seem to me that... well, that the majority of the human species is comprised creatures willing to speak about what is right, good, and/or decent. And yet few of these tremulous creatures are even marginall willing or able to match their actions to their words. It seems wrong to me, to claim to value some trait or ideal, and then be unwilling to do anything at all for it. Maybe I am alone in this thinking, but it seems that that would actually make it completely valueless, and to make such a person a complete hypocrite. I do not mean that such a ideal must always be upheld, no matter the detriment that may cause oneself. But if it is never upheld, fought for, practiced, or anything else, ever, at all...